This is from my old blog, written 2010. January to be exact.
We all have secrets that we wish we could tell someone, anyone, that won’t judge us or think we are horrible people just for thinking them. I am no different and I suspect that if you are reading this you too have a secret that you wish you could tell. I love the Post Secret website and I read it often, but I am afraid to mail my secret in, somehow writing it down on a piece of paper and putting a stamp on it makes it more real and more damning… Here on the internet it doesn’t seem as real since it will just float around in the computer world.
Some of my secrets are long and involved and some are merely a few words that I need to say… Either way read them here, comment if you wish, leave your own if you like. I won’t judge you…
January 18, 2010
I wish I would have turned my ex into the MP’s when he left me for that trampy home wrecker that knew he was married. It would have been satisfing to go to his dishonorable discharge hearing and state that he was sleeping with someone under his command and that the command team above him knew as well…
It also would have been more humiliating than the divorce ended up being. But a part of me will always regret missing the chance for revenge
January 19, 2010
My current husband’s ex wife is driving me crazy! I sometimes wish that she and her current husband would just… disappear, leaving us to raise their daughter (hers and her current husbands, not my husbands..) Weird I know, but she is a sweet little girl and her mother is such a controlling bitch!! The damage she has done to our sons is incredible. I have nothing against the new husband except how awful he is to our sons… and how spineless he is
January 25, 2010
I am not sure that I actually want to do the job that I am getting a Masters degree in. I would rather just stay in school.
January 26, 2010
I still think about the first guy I had sex with. That was 26 years ago. He was so sweet to me. I let him think it was his idea. HA! Like I didn’t plan the entire thing! Of course we were both virgins and had no real idea what we were doing, well beyond the basic mechanics… We certainly managed though. And took a shower together afterwards. I thought I loved him and I was so upset when his mother found out he was dating someone outside of her faith! She made him move back home with her to a different city, treated me like I was a different species, a dirty one at that.
Still, she wasn’t able to ruin my memories of him and the time we did have together. I never got the chance to thank him for being my first or for being as sweet as he was. He was something special. Last time I heard from him he was in the Marines. His family longer lives around here and I often wonder if he is still alive…
Well, where ever you are, Lee, I hope you are having a fabulous life and thank you for my memories of a lovely first (second, third…) time.
Shhh.... I have a secret 
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