Shhh…. I have a secret

July 2012

When you’re going through Hell…

When you’re going through Hell what gives one the strength to keep on going and another on the strength to say enough and stop? Is one really a strength and the other a weakness, if so, which one is which? How do you know that you are the stronger person because you just continue to accept the punishment that is doled out to you? Maybe being strong really is standing up and saying “NO! NO MORE OF THIS CRAP! I WANT OUT” And then acting on that statement.

Words are easy. Actions are hard.

Every notice that?

“I am going to stop eating all of that junk food and finally lose those last 20 pounds.” You declare. The Twinkie in the box on the corner shelf catches your eye and you amend that statement firmly with “Tomorrow.”

“I will clean out the garage and we can have a yard sale with all of that stuff we have been storing there.” Then you take a peek in your garage and suddenly realize that something, anything else needs to be done more.

Action. A simple word that implies movement. Directors reportedly use it when making movies to start scenes actually moving. in real life it implies movement already in progress. Which is correct?

I think that it implies movement already in progress in correct. People like the thought of a movement already in progress that they can join, not one that they have to actually start. Starting something is the hardest part.

Starting a diet is the hardest part. Getting through the first few days of getting used to eating a different way. Not eating things you are used to eating.

Starting to clean up a messy garage when you look at it and there seems to be mounds of stuff everywhere with no organization, and no clear starting point.

Saying “no” when you are overwhelmed with crap and you look around and realize that all you see around you is more of the same.

If the definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over again, yet expecting different results…

My day to day life is an exercise in insanity.

Time to say “No”. More importantly, time to say good bye to my insanity.