Shhh…. I have a secret

Bleah. It’s Monday.

Mondays are always….. tiring. I have no idea why that is so now. I mean I have an odd work schedule. Sort of.

Being a mom, I basically work 7 days a week, but officially I work for 6.

Then there is my doctoral program, still. I am beginning to think I will never finish this dissertation!

I have friends who I have asked how long theirs took. Was it possible to get it done in a year?

Wow. One of my friends thought that was incredibly funny. He laughed so hard. It was a little disheartening, honestly.

Although to be honest, if I could just get this chapter knocked out, I would be miles closer to being done. This is the worst chapter of the 5-6.

However, this is where my motivation starts to lag. There is both a lot of information that is relevant tangentially, and a lack of direct information.

Makes sense, after all, that is the purpose of my paper: to add information (hopefully new and helpful) to the topic I have chosen. But it is really easy to get lost in the ‘weeds’.

Start to talk about why keeping a marriage together is difficult when one has kids. That veers off as to why, which veers off into specifics. Suddenly, I am talking about the cost of therapy dogs.

It does all fit together, but is it all necessary? Am I muddying the waters?

Probably some. But, I guess it is a necessary evil in order to get where I am going.

It just sometimes feels like I am trying to go from Portland, Oregon to Eugene, Oregon via Lead, South Dakota. Or, ‘the long way around Robin’s barn’.

(Thanks, Grandma).