motherhood

  • So, my doctor told me that the test came back ‘good’. What does that mean exactly? Well, despite the fact that I had 38% of my uterus showing signs of cancer (which I am told is better than 50%, which is where I roll my eyes and think really?) there was no sign that it

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  • HAPPY NEW YEAR 2025!

    Looking forward to a new year is almost always filled with hope for a new and better future. Resolutions and promises are made, plans are plotted out to ‘make this year the best year ever!’ And yet…. And yet. Something happens and people give up on their hopes for a better, more prosperous new year.

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  • Secrets are…. Seductive

    Just a couple of secrets I have held on to for a long time and how I feel about them, I guess. When I was pregnant with my eldest, the daughter, she was way late. I mean three weeks late. I know that my math is correct on that, mainly because I thought she was

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  • Husband #2, What I Saw

    We arrived in my hometown (no, I’m not going to specify just in case someone I actually know reads this). I was so happy to see my kids, and my folks. Everyone was happy to see me. ER not so much. My parents thought that we were moving too fast. To be honest, we were.

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  • Not exactly a ‘good’ girl

    Ok, folks, story time. So, to be perfectly honest…. After we had been separated for a few months, well in all but name for 7, and I found out that he had taken ‘her and her kids’ 2000 miles home to meet the family, I got mad. I decided I wanted to have some fun,

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  • Where I left off… Kicked him out, he moved in with her, and things got messy(er). So, kicked him out and told him to get his shit together before he came back. Spoiler. He didn’t, get his shit together that is. Now the way I found out that he had moved in with the whore

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  • Husband #1

    January 2012 Husband #1 Steven B. Husband number 1. Biologic father of 2 of my kids. Musician. Idiot extraordinaire. We married young, I was 20 and he was 19. We were married for almost exactly 13 years. Through good times, bad times and worse times. Five affairs, that I know of ending with the final

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  • May 2011

    Archive for May, 2011 How I spent my mothers day. Today is mothers day. I, myself have 5 children. However, I did not spend any of today with my own kids. Nope. None. Nada. Zip. Zero. Zilch. Why, you might ask. I spent today with other people’s children. Yep. Seriously. I spent today with three different foster

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